As a Christian Paul pissed me off a lot and I had many heated debates with fellow family members that were Christians regarding Paul and his writings. I also hated the whole end times theology of Jesus coming back and taking some but others would have to get their heads chopped off in the name of Christ. That couldn’t be the same God that protected people in the Old Testament, or so I thought.
All through 2018, God kept showing me things about Noah. It started in November of 2017 when I was camping. It was pouring down rain and I was sitting up in the bed with 3 of my nephews and nieces and it was raining so bad I thought “hey let’s read the story of Noah”. So the four of us read and discussed Noah. It seemed so appropriate because of the torrential rains outside that kept us cooped up in the camper.
Next was in December while at work my boss who is a woodworker built a Noah’s Ark set for his wife and it was sitting out on the buffet table. Another time I was driving to work and up on the hill, I could see a HUGE rainbow across the city. From there this Noah theme continued throughout January, February, March and in April I understood why all the Noah references.
April 27th, 2018 I woke up and sat up in bed and it was as though all of a sudden I was fully conscience in my spirit. Everything in the room was like it was a covering and it was fake. I don’t really know how to explain it. But I knew Jesus wasn’t real. All these Noah references were me coming out of Christianity. …You know it was like Noah and all the animals coming out of the ark into a new world.
I did a lot of research and I found myself in Judaism. I decided that was too mystical and esoteric for me and I didn’t want to go there either. In June I decided to lay it all down and take a break. It was beginning to really wear on me and overwhelm me. I felt anxious all the time. I let it go and the anxiety left.
Then in July, I attended a family reunion and a cousin spoke to me about how the Bible was actually an analogy. I could relate to that, as that is how God always spoke to me. I looked into that a little but then my friend was diagnosed with Cancer and I had that to deal with. As we dealt with his cancer we began seeing naturopaths and that took me down a whole nother path of science where I found myself drawing closer and closer to New Age. UGH! not new age, I thought.
I am already a vegan and that is new agey enough for me, or so I thought. But the more I researched the more I kept running into horoscopes, astrology, and tarot readings. No……I don’t want to be this kind of person. Isn’t it enough that I am looking at the third eye awakening and the pineal gland stuff? Now this horoscope crap? How did I get here from just visiting a naturopath????….well it was the whole muscle testing and kinesiology and how does that work? Then it was the crystals and how is there healing power in them? They use crystals in electronics to turn energy into electricity. Then it was the Mhz healing frequency and vibrational music that was actually working in my favor when it got rid of vertigo I dealt with one night. I was just seeking science and an alternative to western medicine and now I find myself down this rabbit hole….I think I kind of understand the story of Alice in Wonderland …lol…
I never wanted to be T H A T person. ……
It’s not that there is anything wrong with it. It’s just that I hung out with these kinds of people on Vashon Island when I lived there for 8 years. They were usually poor, dirty, smelly, and ate weird food and were always high. I do think times are changing though and now even “normal” appearing people are following this age of Aquarius stuff without being too weird like my old Vashon friends.
Anyhoo…just wanted to give an update and point you to my new YouTube series. It is 8 short videos of my thoughts and I hope that if you too are coming out of Christianity that in some way it will help you. That is the whole point of my social media is to help others. My next series will be on depression and how to overcome it. See you 2019!!